Tag: Political

  • Monster

    Monster

    Has been. Orange ogre. A thing too lacquered to ignore and too thirsty to fully trust. He’s a real piece of work. Money makes for poor decisions. Like having McDonald’s Uber’d into the White House. Delivered into a place that already feels sealed, curated, more display than dwelling. Besides the obvious health risks, what kind of security do the burgers go through? Every cardboard shell is an audited vessel, passing through hands scrubbed of identity. Even a burger gets treated like a potential incident wrapped in paper and grease. Nothing enters freely. It arrives permitted. Consumption, but contained. Just make sure it’s diet.

    Beyond the joke, something darker opens… She keeps pressing against the invisible pane, not sure if it’s glass or habit. Something on the other side watches. Not with eyes, but with appetite. She built the box. Or the box built her. The distinction has dissolved. Either way, she can feel it breathing back. A quiet pressure in the air, like something waiting just outside perception, patient as corrosion. A watcher without a face. Not hunting, just observing what breaks first. A trifling watcher who gobbles up the unprepared. A dark reflection of power. It doesn’t need to chase. Everything comes to it sanctioned. Nothing leaves freely. It is excreted into the approved mould.

    Then there’s the thing that bids you to stay, the delicate dry friction of a hollow husk. The comfort of edges you no longer question. Perhaps it’s time itself keeping her pressed between the glass. She leans into it and feels nothing resist. That’s the cruelty. Nothing pushes back. Nothing has to. A prisoner in her bones, a slowly decaying promise, where every choice is a lock already closing. Time doesn’t pass here. It seals. It holds. It keeps.

    Those confined by the system are not broken. They are processed. Life becomes something pre-packaged in insufficient portions, rationed by a watcher who grows fat on the hunger of the caged. Choices trimmed down to what can be managed, what can be tolerated, what can be contained. This spectral prison, the glass cage, is not imposed. It is maintained. Trapped in your own consumption. Nothing enters freely. Nothing leaves freely. Everything is permitted. Everything is processed. The shadow economy: A black market of stolen time, stolen health, stolen lives. The beast isn’t just hungry, it’s ravenous for the trap. For the way it consumes, for the way it ensures no one escapes. It feeds on the trap itself—on quiet compliance, on sealed edges, on the way nothing resists.

  • Focus

    Focus

    Another holiday under the hood and spring is officially underfoot. A fresh mow of the yard has revealed the yearly crop of meadow garlic. Sending up its scraps like a confession—each leaf a whisper of forgotten gardens. The concentrated wild onion is a surprisingly delicate combination with the lemony fresh magnolia. Maybe the world’s quietest mutiny is in the way wild flowers refuse to be domesticated. Roots cracking concrete rather than fists pounding walls.

    I’m liking the way the eyes are turning out. Outstretched, her hand is a glitch in the code, yet her eyes remain in focus. Her heart is on her sleeve. But her eyes? They’re not broken—they’re rewired, like a hacker reading the seams of the code. Holding space for her to exist without the spectacle, without the need to constantly prove her worth on any stage but her own.

    With his attention fully on his traditional wings, his face is splattered with sauce like it’s the blood of his chicken enemy. A map of culinary chaos, the sauce a memory of the hunt. not just the kill, but the weight of the chase. I’m inspired to do a quick doodle of the food zombie.

    Spotlight on caricatures! After last week’s success and the former picture, I’m now having a moment with quickies. I am liking the roughness of the pieces. There’s a glimmer of someone inside. They are like breadcrumbs left for a stranger to find: they’re too much, too little, a joke, a truth. That’s the magic of a quick sketch: it’s a promise, a lie, a love letter.

    Oh no. There’s a circus out there targeting the deaf and blind. The center has training wheels and there’s only a thin save below. Emphasis on the tightrope act. The safety net? It’s not there for them. It’s there for the rest of us.

    New records are being made all over and most are not welcome. Sharpening the knives because most are finally seeing that the way to the top isn’t clean. It’s rough, it’s messy. It isn’t in the spring’s freshness, but in the space between the blooms—where the wild onion meets the magnolia, where the glitch meets the focus, where the knife meets the line.

  • Loss & Gain

    Loss & Gain

    The psychiatric professional on my mental health journey has taken on a position within another company. I’m struggling with my personal loss, but so thankful for all that’s been gained. When I started this over a year ago, I didn’t know what to expect and now I find myself looking forward to those check-ins. I’ve had such a positive experience with this guide. It is my sincerest hope that this is a success in all aspects for him.

    The Pros and Cons are at it again. There’s so much double talk and double dealing, it’s sad to watch the burning. Just the day before his death, I was looking at old videos for the former FBI Director. Who will take on that mantle now?

    The upside is another year alive, the downside is that life seems to be getting shorter. As winter blurs with summer, forgetting all about spring’s gifts, I forget what I’ve forgotten.

    I’ve had pleasure of camping out in the boonies this past weekend. The highs and lows of the weather are just mean enough to make parts of the day almost unbearable. I imagine this is what it’s like living in the desert, only they have less humidity. I’ve also never been to so much as an Arizona airport to know the air. No regrets; We had friends to keep us company. It was the anniversary of a death that hit like a Mack truck and we celebrated it the best way possible.

    He’s not drunk, he’s happy. He looks drunk. I give in; this poor pup has gotten into the spirits. The highlight is that this was fun to doodle. The challenge is that it’s a failed attempt to capture a moment.

    I just got the call for a meeting with the hand-selected person for my mental health journey going forward. I’m nervously excited for not only myself, but for both my former and future “teammates”. We have opportunities to grab and obstacles to overcome.

  • Ghosts

    Ghosts

    This week has left me bruised, but no worse for wear. Taking yet another tumble, down the stairs this time around, I’m feeling less confident in my walking abilities than I use to be. There’s a ghost in the room.

    Are you real or just in my head? All these things I should’ve said. I’m not gone… never gone…

    I’m not the only one haunted. A certain second termer is finding he’s not Teflon. It may be winter, but it’s hot in the kitchen.

    Trying to recapture a moment, a feeling in the eyes. She looks right, but the pose is eluding me again. It’s a phantom moment I’m trying to capture.

    I found her. She was hiding in plain sight; tracing her fingers over the seeds of tomorrow. Spring must be on the horizon. At least, the weather has felt like the equinox has begun. I wonder what shadow follows her light.

    I guess it’s time for more yaoi, because there’s always time for yaoi. Mostly because it’s a request and I like fulfilling wishes as much as I like crushing dreams. The phantoms sing to me while I sleep. I’m spooked by the doodle I’ve brought to life. It’s less frightening than the real life boi love going on between these two.

    I need to counter all this energy. Puppers! Yeah, that’s some good healthy golden energy. I can’t help smiling at this precious girl.

    The week has been sampling me like a food court. The bruises will fade, as will my memory of this tumble, but the apparition pushing me down remains.

  • Ego

    Ego

    I’ve always been intrigued by the devil. Not in the new age Christian idea of an eternal evil, but the idea to ask “why?” The push to break chains, it’s only natural, is it not? Kali is the destroyer of illusion, the breaker of ego. This feels more devil to me than Satan’s prince of darkness. Was Lucifer not the light bringer, the morning star?

    Choosing women who held dominion/power in patriarchal systems, I want to mix up the cultural influences. How can I overlook Catherine the Great? Usurping her husband to not only expand upon, but stabilize and codify her power in a time when it was still being debated if women needed an education. Peter the Great was the blueprint, but Catherine outgrew the system. Self-image is everything, ladies.

    A revelation arrives. Radical honesty. I’m asked to see myself clearly and then decide whether I will answer the call or retreat back into sleep. Respect. Judgment is not about punishment. RuPaul is not a gavel, but a summons; blasting off like a trumpet. If Death is the ending of a chapter, Judgment is the realization of what that chapter meant.

    How to follow up Ru? With a force of nature as hot as she is! Volcanic eruption represents sudden upheaval, destruction, and transformation. Lightning symbolizes divine insight. Proud Pele is giving major Tower energy.

    I find myself in the interest of inclusion, there has to be a feminist masculine. Gaius Musonius Rufus comes into view. His style reminds me of another great who met sexism where it lived, Ruth Bader Ginsberg. Using the vain language of the day to speak to his contemporaries, his lectures called out educational bias without holding back. Paraphrasing: If it makes for a better son, why not a better daughter? I rather like the idea of Musonius doing “women’s work”. Some soul food for you, dearie.

    Ahhh, now we have the World card. The conduit that the planes flow through; wholeness that requires participation, a blur of artist and viewer. Yoko Ono may seem like a controversial choice, but as the mirror suggests, it says more about us than her. No arrogance here, simply the infusion of life and art into one.

    Character is defined by our hardest moments. Sure. Confidence can lead the way, but only action seals the deal. It’s my selfish desire to know the why and how that guides me. My unconscious mind is waiting to be woken.

  • Madness

    Madness

    Seeing a new therapist. It’s been enlightening in its own gentle ways. I’m always grateful for a perspective change. I’ve never had a male therapist before and already I’m getting somewhere with the usual suspects in my melancholy mind. In the early morning, I catch a view that stops my madness completely and lets me just enjoy the dappled silence.

    Still manically working on the tarot series. It’s been a while since I’ve had a big project and I’m excited for the experience. It’s time for the Princess of class, Audrey Hepburn to take her throne as the Moon.

    When it came time to do The Sun card, something snuck up on me; Inclusion isn’t ageist. Thinking back to the joys of watching her movies, Shirley Temple has made a mark not only on generations, but for generations. While the Depression raged, she was Spring amongst the endless struggle of poverty and despair. She was a beacon of childhood happiness, what could be and what innocence should be.

    World news is trying to bog down my sunlight. Listening to the Davos meeting is worse than lectures. My head hurts listening to Muskfish. My heart hurts listening to his ex-bestie. What does the Chairman of the aboard of Peace do? Graciously removing* force from the 2026 Bingo card (*for now).

    Derangement is a word used often by people who don’t hear themselves. I’m consumed by the dementia. I don’t recognize the people in the room, but know I’m irritated by who they pretend to be.

    Maybe this new therapist can help with the claustrophobic anxiety. This nonsense can only get more absurd from here, but I’m always looking for stable ground. In the least, an island of rationality.