Tag: Artwork

  • Fear

    Fear

    The monster better run. No more cowering or pleading for just a chance. Harnessing her call to arms, she’s ready, steady, go for the next move and her eye is on the prize. Time to fear her.

    A scare earlier this week left me rattled, but intact. One wrong shift and a little hiccup nearly tossed me out a sideways jeep. Seatbelt held. So did I. No worse for wear. Thank the maker.

    I never sleep (She doesn’t sleep!),

    I’m the secret that you’re gonna keep.

    I’ve climbed through the static and into your dreams,

    To harvest the echoes and muffle the screams (Muffle the screams…)

    On to more daunting tasks, the work piles up. Commissions everywhere. It’s chaos, but the good kind. Still making time to doodle for myself and whoever’s watching. I’m hooked on this OC. Still nameless. Still becoming. Got any suggestions?

    Not just simply breaking free of her veiled cage, she’s free of the white noise. She silences the noise. Clawing through wreckage, she finds light threading the dark. It hits her deep, a bone-level clarity. The first clear signal she’s ever heard. The darkness only exists because there is light.

    She’s close now. No hesitation left. No fear. The box is behind her. Now comes the harder part. What comes after? How to exist with others again. How to live without the cage defining her.

    She’s navigating a new set of shadows, wearing a new look. She moves in a new skin. The frightened eyes of the past have made for the confidence of her hands.

    A reverence in the heading, where shall she go next? The terror threshold is behind her, a scorched line in the dirt. She doesn’t just carry the light, she’s learned to focus the glow into a blade that carves a path. Existence is no longer a haunting, it’s a broadcast. She moves toward the horizon not because she’s searching for a home, but because she’s realized the sky is the only thing big enough to hold the version of herself she just unfurled.

  • Monster

    Monster

    Has been. Orange ogre. A thing too lacquered to ignore and too thirsty to fully trust. He’s a real piece of work. Money makes for poor decisions. Like having McDonald’s Uber’d into the White House. Delivered into a place that already feels sealed, curated, more display than dwelling. Besides the obvious health risks, what kind of security do the burgers go through? Every cardboard shell is an audited vessel, passing through hands scrubbed of identity. Even a burger gets treated like a potential incident wrapped in paper and grease. Nothing enters freely. It arrives permitted. Consumption, but contained. Just make sure it’s diet.

    Beyond the joke, something darker opens… She keeps pressing against the invisible pane, not sure if it’s glass or habit. Something on the other side watches. Not with eyes, but with appetite. She built the box. Or the box built her. The distinction has dissolved. Either way, she can feel it breathing back. A quiet pressure in the air, like something waiting just outside perception, patient as corrosion. A watcher without a face. Not hunting, just observing what breaks first. A trifling watcher who gobbles up the unprepared. A dark reflection of power. It doesn’t need to chase. Everything comes to it sanctioned. Nothing leaves freely. It is excreted into the approved mould.

    Then there’s the thing that bids you to stay, the delicate dry friction of a hollow husk. The comfort of edges you no longer question. Perhaps it’s time itself keeping her pressed between the glass. She leans into it and feels nothing resist. That’s the cruelty. Nothing pushes back. Nothing has to. A prisoner in her bones, a slowly decaying promise, where every choice is a lock already closing. Time doesn’t pass here. It seals. It holds. It keeps.

    Those confined by the system are not broken. They are processed. Life becomes something pre-packaged in insufficient portions, rationed by a watcher who grows fat on the hunger of the caged. Choices trimmed down to what can be managed, what can be tolerated, what can be contained. This spectral prison, the glass cage, is not imposed. It is maintained. Trapped in your own consumption. Nothing enters freely. Nothing leaves freely. Everything is permitted. Everything is processed. The shadow economy: A black market of stolen time, stolen health, stolen lives. The beast isn’t just hungry, it’s ravenous for the trap. For the way it consumes, for the way it ensures no one escapes. It feeds on the trap itself—on quiet compliance, on sealed edges, on the way nothing resists.

  • Loss & Gain

    Loss & Gain

    The psychiatric professional on my mental health journey has taken on a position within another company. I’m struggling with my personal loss, but so thankful for all that’s been gained. When I started this over a year ago, I didn’t know what to expect and now I find myself looking forward to those check-ins. I’ve had such a positive experience with this guide. It is my sincerest hope that this is a success in all aspects for him.

    The Pros and Cons are at it again. There’s so much double talk and double dealing, it’s sad to watch the burning. Just the day before his death, I was looking at old videos for the former FBI Director. Who will take on that mantle now?

    The upside is another year alive, the downside is that life seems to be getting shorter. As winter blurs with summer, forgetting all about spring’s gifts, I forget what I’ve forgotten.

    I’ve had pleasure of camping out in the boonies this past weekend. The highs and lows of the weather are just mean enough to make parts of the day almost unbearable. I imagine this is what it’s like living in the desert, only they have less humidity. I’ve also never been to so much as an Arizona airport to know the air. No regrets; We had friends to keep us company. It was the anniversary of a death that hit like a Mack truck and we celebrated it the best way possible.

    He’s not drunk, he’s happy. He looks drunk. I give in; this poor pup has gotten into the spirits. The highlight is that this was fun to doodle. The challenge is that it’s a failed attempt to capture a moment.

    I just got the call for a meeting with the hand-selected person for my mental health journey going forward. I’m nervously excited for not only myself, but for both my former and future “teammates”. We have opportunities to grab and obstacles to overcome.